Love it

well well long time since my last post. if i was gonna sum up everything since then it could be done with a simple name ''ellie goddard''.....wow....this girl....is amazing.....she really really is. Funny, Gorgeous, creative, random as hell =), makes me lol big time, understands my strange little thought tracks oh did i mention shes gorgeous....well just incase i didnt she is...very much so =p. Love her to pieces. anyway what elsse has happened....hmmm....well lots of work work and party party really. have become proper good friends with jordan naylor really sorted guy. Ummm bought my KC tickets...which will be amazing....with ellie =p and jordan XD gonna be great. well thats about it, bye all, loves. oh and ps Ellie is amazing just incase that didnt get across.

exstensivly confused

I am well and truely stuck here =p, right so theres this girl at school right...and i like her...shes funny, gorgeous, blunt its all brill but my Bestfriend(who has a gf) is always going on about how he has thoughts about her. now me and her have gotten kinda close but shes a boarder and itll be a hard relationship but i think shes worth it....but ill just be in constant fear of her and my bessie getting together before that point...and its all kinda screwed up cause id rather her and him where happy but then shes amazing and blargh all variations of what i just said.... its crazy man crazy.....and im ill which sucks to. =p

Well Well

well....since my last post...its been downward trend. Amber broke up with me, so yeah that sucked...never got the chance to tell her how much i liked her...was on the verge of telling her i loved her if im honest, but lifes a bitch like that....i could rant on all night about it but it was a week ago and i really probably should start getting over it....but hey a year and a half relationship....im allowed a short period of....sorrow about the end of it arnt i. Fuck it ima rant...the worst feeling of the whole thing is that i know she'll be over me before im over her....Bertie says its her lose....but thats not how i see it....after this her life can only really go up....u know no me so she can do whatever the hell she wants....whereas im just gonna brood over it for awhile....drown my sorrows at some point....rant to the nearest random equally drunk person....and then brood some more cause i can....its just really really crap...really crap....i wonder if she knows how crap i find it...probably not but oh well thats life right. Goodnight all, sweet dreams

I am

Right its been a loooong loong time since me last update and lots has happened since then that i can really be bothered to write about bar one thing, i am still with amber, and its ridiculous how happy that makes me but the strange thing is i'm afraid to tell her how happy it makes me..... what's up with that right.....i mean being with her is like well its just fantastically awesome im not saying that like she's my one and only cause come on im me and im 16 but right now at this very moment shes just.... the girl for me....i literally cant think of anyone i'd rather be with at this moment in time....i mean shes not perfect and saying that sounds dooshy but like if i thought she was perfect it be weird.....even when she complains like right now shes complaining about how crap england is and all i can do is smile cause im just happy to be with her and im scared that ill lose her at any moment.....fucked up thoughts man fucked up thoughts. but hey thats life right =p peace out

Urges

Urges
1-Go to Italy
2-Go to america
3-go back to italy and go to a venetian festival
4-make a massive batch of pancakes that towers over me
5-make a load of really depressing music videos
6-Take a picture of myself with a large stack of money
7-take that picture to everyone who ever doubted me and
show them it while victory dancing
8-dye my hair again
9-fuck it and shave my hair off
10-fake my own death so i can rise from the grave and pretend
to be a zombie.
Thats it for now will put more on later.....why do i blog =p no one reads any of it i mean iv got like 2 followers eh fuck it i like the venting

Friggin Life

Wow do i get myself into some situations...thats all iv really got to say on that cause i dont want to go into a detail, but iv decided that this summer is going to be my summer of Re-invention, this summer is how im going to clean my slate, everything and anything iv said this year isnt going to apply to next year....obviously within reason if iv said your my friend you'll remain my friend but like alot is not going to apply cause i really want to have a year with no previous commitments.

Im regretting the deaths of others alot lately....mainly brett...i feel cheated for not getting to actually know him for that long.

OK massive shout out to Amy Jones, cause i feel like im losing her, i havent actually talked to her in forever and its kinda heart breaking but "fuck it", amy you are the best friend iv had since iv been here and you leaving is like a knife to the gut cause i know how easily people drift apart and it makes me want to cry cause i know that the chances are we will but when we do know that i hold no grudge cause of everyone iv ever met you;ve been the only one iv felt like i could tell anything to and that i could confide in and thats how i'll always remember you. Incase we dont get to have an actuall conversation before summer good luck with everything you do and know that i love you and you;ll always be a cherished friend.

Friggin life hey =(

Sleeping

Its weird thinking people i can imagine talking to right now are asleep.

I want to be as comfortable as this panda =(