exstensivly confused

I am well and truely stuck here =p, right so theres this girl at school right...and i like her...shes funny, gorgeous, blunt its all brill but my Bestfriend(who has a gf) is always going on about how he has thoughts about her. now me and her have gotten kinda close but shes a boarder and itll be a hard relationship but i think shes worth it....but ill just be in constant fear of her and my bessie getting together before that point...and its all kinda screwed up cause id rather her and him where happy but then shes amazing and blargh all variations of what i just said.... its crazy man crazy.....and im ill which sucks to. =p

Well Well

well....since my last post...its been downward trend. Amber broke up with me, so yeah that sucked...never got the chance to tell her how much i liked her...was on the verge of telling her i loved her if im honest, but lifes a bitch like that....i could rant on all night about it but it was a week ago and i really probably should start getting over it....but hey a year and a half relationship....im allowed a short period of....sorrow about the end of it arnt i. Fuck it ima rant...the worst feeling of the whole thing is that i know she'll be over me before im over her....Bertie says its her lose....but thats not how i see it....after this her life can only really go up....u know no me so she can do whatever the hell she wants....whereas im just gonna brood over it for awhile....drown my sorrows at some point....rant to the nearest random equally drunk person....and then brood some more cause i can....its just really really crap...really crap....i wonder if she knows how crap i find it...probably not but oh well thats life right. Goodnight all, sweet dreams