Hard times

Im finding it very very hard to be friends with my ex. i want to. i really really want to. but i just cant. i cant find anyway to feel that way about her. i cant just be friends..... =( i guess im going to have to get used to it. but i dont know how its gonna work. how do you be friends with someone you can only feel unconventional love for...i wish i knew the answer. but i dont =(. i guess it comes down to having her in my life and just gritting my teeth to keep it all inside or not have her in it at all. the latter i would rather not imagine...but i wonder if it would be easier.....even if it was i dont think id do it. she means to much.