Bitter Sweet

Well everyone its been awhile. the best way to explain whats been going on is ''bitter sweet'' girl i loved. well and truely loved this time....didnt even doubt it....broke up with me so went on a week long booz binge which didnt help. put more effort in to trying to get her back than effort iv put into alot of things recently. Didnt go to well....havent got her back. still slightly heartbroke. and i dont think im gonna get over her for a long while. but.....id rather make her happy than carry on badgering her to get back with me. so were friends now =) and it hurts so much =( but....i just want her to be happy. haha ''i love you till the end'' by the pogues basically explains how i feel towards her.

Found a brilliant speech to sum everything up.

''There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever.''

could of just posted that rather than anything else really =p mor dramatic. but oh well. Lets hope life takes an upwards turn again. this blogs very very upsy downsy.